I call it Darkness
He falls into the darkness, falls into the internity of himself.
Not knowing anyone or anything, searching for nothing.
Wishing he could have had what he cant hold.
Nothing will make his situation better.
Yelling and screaming inside, but he cant breath.
Searching for someone to repair his heart.
Keeps bleeding invisible blood that only he can see and feel.
Anger fills his tormented soul like lions.
Dieing is his only option, please repair this broken heart.
Calls her number and theres no response, friendship is all he wanted in the end.
But he never got, never got to be her friend again.
Goes home and looks for a gun, as he calls her and leaves a message.
Flashes of memories fill his mind, just before he says his final words,
I love you
He sits in the dark, thinks about how he messed it up.
She was the one, the only one he loved.
He blew his two chances, with out realizing what had happened.
Things jus thappened so fast. Like watching a movie while fast forwarding it.
All she says is im sorry, That doesnt mean sh*t anymore.
She turned her back and walked away, I stare looking at her.
My vision gets blurry, a tear crawls down my cheek.
That was it, it was over, nothing will be the same.
I see her at school and I saw Hi, she turns and pretends she didnt hear me.
All my friends always asked why i was going out with her. Love isent all about !@#$ing, I added.
No one knew how much I loved her. Just hearing the name makes me want to kill myself.
Its all over, nothing is the same.
He game her his heart, He would give anytthing for one more chance.
Looks around for something to kill him self with.
TOS walks over, "dude its going to be alright, where here for you". Garys gives him a hug, he's the only one who knew how special she was to me.
I turn around I put my hands in my pockets and walk away.
He sits in the grass with his backpack looking up at the sky. What if I donít live another year, month, week or day? Where would I be if I died, would anyone even miss me? I lay back thinking about memories I had with my friends. Then some one special crossed my mind, my eyes slammed open. What would my last words be if I knew that was the last time I would be able to breath in front of them.. Would I tell them how much I love them? Yell and be pissed at them? Would I run around in public yelling at the top of my lungs that I love my friends and my family and they love me? Would I ever get a chance to tell the one I love how I truly feel? You never know what happens; you canít determine how your life goes. God has plans for everyone, and when something bad happens to me I know that it is planned. I know that he has my back and is always with me. Even when he punishes me for doing something bad, or a girl friend breaks up with me. So day by day, I try to enjoy life while I can.
Edited by HaloD MC, 14 April 2005 - 04:41 PM.